Fuck. FuckFuckFuck. Normally I don't swear but, fuck. My weight gain went up to 110.2. Sunday I lost a bit. Monday I lost a bit. Today I gained. And I ate less yesterday. I should have lost but I gained. Fuckity fuck fuck fuck. I ate less yesterday and hell. I'm mini-fasting 'til dinner tonight. Why? Because last night I decided I would take my bestie out to her favourite restaurant. I had it all planned because I thought I would lose. Hell. It's a fucking pasta restaurant. I'll fast, weigh myself before I go, and just have soup. This ruins everything. I NEED to be down to 103 by Tuesday next week. I have to do it.
On another note, I'm seeing my therapist today. We're going to make a list of rules about what I can and can't eat to get my binging purging under control. Yay! Because I talked a bit about what I can/can't eat last night and hopefully when we go grocery shopping today I've convinced her not to buy any junk foods.
Hopefully things will look up tomorrow.
-Kit
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