...With my medication. Why? One of the side effects listed in children and adolescents is weight loss. I have been eating shit for a week and only gone up to 116 when usually I would bounce right up to my set weight of 124. It's also decreased my appetite which prevents me from binging and purging which is excellent. Now I just need to stop feeling so fucking sorry for myself and eat right. Then everything will be perfect. I'll be perfect.
Tomorrow I have my first one on one session with my therapist since hospital. Oh Joy. I might just die. Then Wednesday I have my first family therapy meeting. That one's going to fucking kill me. I can't talk about this mess in front of my parents. I absolutely can't. Fuck. I'm also getting a meeting with my GP too. Woot. I feel so fucking popular.
Hospital hasn't changed anything. It just feels like a weird dream.
It sounds scary but you will be ok. You should talk about things when you are ready, and if you are uncomfortable you should make that clear during your sessions. Stay strong hun.
ReplyDeleteThe medicine you are taking sound sadly appealing, but that's still not a good thing. I hope you are ok <3